CHOCOLATE PERIOD!

Wow, the day has come girls. MY PERIOD is manipulating me!!! Well it is the week in the month that all girls wait for. You know that CYCLE of events that have you reaching for your tampons and jumping for joy! ..... no? ....me either.

Enter TODAY: I am on a STRICT diet because I am getting married in less than TWO months (which OMGosh I am ecstatic!) but a diet none the less. Yet here I was willing to sell my own mother for just a piece of chocolate. Well I can NOT go buy myself some chocolate... it just wouldn't be right. I have been so good on my diet, I can NOT let myself down.... So... I had the BRIGHT idea, (can you hear the evil period laugh?) if I buy everyone in my office some chocolate maybe they will share with me and then I wont feel like I am cheating on my diet, cause I did not buy it for myself!!!!

Let me stop here....Ladies HELP ME OUT HERE...Why do we intensely crave CHOCOLATE during this time of the month!? It is odd because I do not recall this coming up as issue on any doctor ordered blood test. Mrs period, your iron levels are just fine and your cholesterol is at normal levels but that cocoa level is just not healthy... I am recommending you stop at dairy queen on the way home and chase it down with chocolate milk and a candy bar.

Hey, I don't know about you but insurance covered or not I would gladly book an appointment with that medical facility TODAY.

As you might of guessed it is in fact the week of my punctuation.... er... period. And while that is too much information, it makes me feel good to vent about my need for chocolate, whew! a couple of m&m's and one blog later... I feel better! :-D THANKS FOR READING!

WEDDING DRESS

Of the significant experiences of a woman’s life, perhaps the most iconic is the moment she emerges from a dressing room, spies herself in a 360 degree mirror, and realizes that she has indeed found “the” perfect wedding dress.

I didn’t know I would have that moment, until I found my dress.

I was excited to try on dresses that day! I had the privilege of going with my soulmate's mom and we have a great time. I went in with expectations that I would find the right dress and just "know" but also that it may not be the very first day that I shopped that I would find a dress.

So we drive to a bridal place in town.....I found a couple of dresses that I thought were nice. Hopped in the dressing room and tried a couple on. Nothing... Not even a wow this is a cute dress moment. I wanted to tap my heart, like Hello in there are ya feeling anything about this one? It was just as if I wasn’t trying on the most important attire for my future. I didn’t find one dress that I felt even cute in. and certainly not as if it belonged in my wedding or on my body as a bride. I tried on 10 more dresses... nothing. (tapping my chest, hello heart are you there?) feel something!

I became discouraged in the car ride from the first bridal place to the second. I began to second guess my outlook I had, had on the day… Maybe I wasn't going to find a dress today, which I thought I had prepared myself for but was sad all the same. I though...SELF what were you expecting? to go in and just have some "fairy-tale" moment..... well yeah self, I kind of was.

The next place we went I saw three dresses that held lots more promise than the previous dresses. I tried on the first dress and it was gorgeous, yet not the one which was weird because really guys this dress looked like it could be modeled in a magazine. It truly was a beautiful dress and fit almost tailored...but no not the one. Which further caused my question. It really was an absolutely beautiful dress... why wasn't this it? It fit perfectly. A thousand thoughts ran through my mind... Was I expecting too much out of a dress? I know it is my wedding dress but am I expecting myself to feel something that will never come?

Tried the second- yuck. Now I was REALLY second guessing myself. Are you SURE the first dress was not something that would work? And hey don't be so hard on your self...self. I do not have to pick out a dress today. I can go a while and try on quite a few others and go from there.

So almost resigned that I wouldn't pick a dress today... I tried the third dress on and I felt the dress become me. I know that might be hard to understand but I knew in my heart of hearts before I even saw myself in one single mirror that this was the dress I was going to marry my soulmate in. It was an overwhelming sense of emotion and I started crying before I even made it out of the dressing room to see myself in the mirror. (I know a lot of girls cry as we are emotional creatures... I however do not cry at the drop of a hat, so this was a big deal to me.) I came out of the dressing room with tears in my eyes and sucked in a breath. It was MY wedding dress. It fit perfect and was everything I wanted. It was so amazing that I knew as soon as I put it on my body. I felt it, it was like the cloth was sewn for me. For the purpose of fulfilling my destiny, to marry my best friend. I cannot wait to stand in front of him that day and wear this dress.